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Mavigan
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What is the name of your state? Well I live in Canada..
I apologize ahead of time if this isnt the proper thread. I dont really know what Im seeking advice on exactly. I found out about less than a year ago, that the man who raised me is not my biolgical father. ( I just turned 18) I remember at about the age of 6 or 7 looking at my baptism announcement in a photo album and I noticed I had my mothers surname. Things like that, my mom would tell me that "I am hers" and as a small girl I remember her saying things like "we married your daddy" or "you chose him for your daddy" I dont know, I felt I had been lied to all my life, It was angering. But I would calm down and be grateful I had such a wonderful mother and father. That he didnt have to be my dad. But he was.. and his mother and father didnt have to treat me with such love, Things like this. But it still gets to me. And the fact of how it all happened.. I shudder to say but my bio father took advantage of my mother, a rape situation. He was a 'friend' of hers. He denied me. GOD. okay This man has a happy little family not 5 minutes down the highway from us. I hate the things I know. And I dont know how to go about anything. This anger eats at me. I dont want to meet him, But Im convinced I have to confront him somehow. My whole life as a child I always just pretend things like I didnt know my daddy. I dont know why, it was just something in the back of my mind. So when I was told it didnt surprise me too much. But. I guess this is just a rant. I'm sorry, I guess if anyone has some advice on what I should do.. confront him.. or what? It would be greatly appreciated.
Thank-you
I apologize ahead of time if this isnt the proper thread. I dont really know what Im seeking advice on exactly. I found out about less than a year ago, that the man who raised me is not my biolgical father. ( I just turned 18) I remember at about the age of 6 or 7 looking at my baptism announcement in a photo album and I noticed I had my mothers surname. Things like that, my mom would tell me that "I am hers" and as a small girl I remember her saying things like "we married your daddy" or "you chose him for your daddy" I dont know, I felt I had been lied to all my life, It was angering. But I would calm down and be grateful I had such a wonderful mother and father. That he didnt have to be my dad. But he was.. and his mother and father didnt have to treat me with such love, Things like this. But it still gets to me. And the fact of how it all happened.. I shudder to say but my bio father took advantage of my mother, a rape situation. He was a 'friend' of hers. He denied me. GOD. okay This man has a happy little family not 5 minutes down the highway from us. I hate the things I know. And I dont know how to go about anything. This anger eats at me. I dont want to meet him, But Im convinced I have to confront him somehow. My whole life as a child I always just pretend things like I didnt know my daddy. I dont know why, it was just something in the back of my mind. So when I was told it didnt surprise me too much. But. I guess this is just a rant. I'm sorry, I guess if anyone has some advice on what I should do.. confront him.. or what? It would be greatly appreciated.
Thank-you