To the one who asked how much 50% is for me its $850 a month. But when you get out of the military on medical disability they give up a severance pay, the problem with that is you have to pay it back (oh, with no interest). The severance I got will take over 20 years to pay back. I've paid for the last 15 years only 5 to go. To those who think I should be committed, I see a shrink thru the VA, but again if anyone has ever been to a VA shrink, well then you know how much they really care. Hell if they could make it in the real world why would they work for the VA. If you have no insurance or way to see a real doctor you have to go where you can. For me that is the VA. They are real good about given out medications. I have 24 pills a day I am prescribed for physical and mental problems. For those who want to cut me down, I've only done what ever I could for this woman. NEVER LAID A HAND ON HER, did cheat when I was sent overseas at 21, but at 44 I haven't since. She can't say the same, but each time I went to counseling because of children were young and I truly loved her and wanted a family in the worst way. Neither one of us had familys when we were kids. We wanted better for our kids. Now I get sick because of the Gulf War, and she leaves me and I'm not owed alimony? This country is set up for women and illegals. What happened to the USA? Send you to war, and give up on you when your no longer useful. But this site is for advice about divorce, and I guess I got it. Thank you to those who helped with there input. Hope you can help others who are in need as I was (am). God bless you