Dearie,
You are out there procreating. You are, as an adult, responsible for supporting yourself. That is nobody elses responsibility.
Now, you also have created TWO children, so, in addition to your responsibility as an adult, to support yourself, you have added the responsibility to provide your share of the cost of supporting the kids you are creating. STOP making excuses. By choosing to procreate, not once, but twice, outside of a firm, COMMITTED relationship ("he wanted me to . . " is a second grade type of response. You, and you alone, have total control over who, when and under what circumstances, you allow yourself to be at-risk of pregnancy.) you have robbed your children of the opportunity of growing up in the same home with both of their parents. In a normal, intact, household, a child has continuous and frequent opportunities to interact and bond with BOTH their parents. This child deserves no less. The majority of new parents have no experience with a newborn, yet do just fine in caring for them.
STOP trying to live off the product of your uterus. Else one day you will be an older woman with no decent retirement or SS to live off of, no decent SS disability credits, once your kids are too old for you to live off of CS.
If you wanted the luxury of the option of just being home and "not stressing" you should have waited until you had a long term, committed relationship in which your spouse had agreed they would support you (and was financially capable of doing so) when the both of you had a child together in your combined household.