To LadyBlu

I thank you for your support. I guess my problem is that all of this is coming to a head. My children lived with my ex for a year before this and they have been through so much. I am just waiting for our court date so I can put some of this behind me and start helping my children cop with what has been going on. I do want my ex wife to be apart of our childrens lives but I want her to be clean and be able to talk to me without the yelling and name calling. Our children love her but they know that this has been a on going thing with her. They want her to stop and get along. Our children need us both, even though I am remarried I still need her to be a mother to them. My wife has endured all this with me, she is a great stepmom and a friend to my children. I think my children look at as a nuterual base for them. Not that I talk bad about my ex wife which I do not to my children but I feel the conflicts my ex has done infront of them and the things she does say about me leaves them confused. I just wish this nightmare was over. I worry about my children often and they have been the only thing on my mind like this since my ex was arrested for the drugs. I have spent hours gathering information for that last 4 months I have had them. Its what helps me keep going and fighting for their best interest. Thanks again Ladyblu**************taking a deep breath did me some good.