helpless76
Junior Member
please help me decide something! im from florida and i just cant take my life. ive been suicidal since i was 8 years old. your supposed to be happy in your childhood but i never was. i was sexually abused by my father when i was 2 years old (hes gone now) my mom is dieing of cancer and my grandma takes care of her and me but she an alcholic and a perfectionist who is driving me crazy. they sent me away to a program for cutting myself and being suicidal. also for doing some drugs and skipping school. but ive been there for 1 year and 3 months now. im on the highest level and everyone thinks i should be able to go home now but my grandma wont let me she can never trust me again and i cant leave till im 18 and im 16 right now. i cant stand being in a program but i also cant stand being at home. my life feels like a living hell just like its always felt like. ive been wanting to run away since i was 4. even before my mom was dieing she was so out of it because of all the drugs she use to take. ive always been more like her mother than the other way around. ive decided i think it would be best if i ran away. i have a place i can stay at and it would also be good for my family cause my grandma wouldnt have to spend so much money on that program and she would be able to afford more of my moms medications. i was wondering if i came back when im 18 would they be able to do anything to me or would i be free? please help me i really need advice!!! also i have a good plan for when i run away. when im 18 ill get my ged than go to one year of college and ill become a computer specialist. by the way when i run away it wont be from the program it will be from home cause im on a home visit.
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