I am so sorry to hear about the rough times you are going through, Shay.
On one particularly crappy day several years ago, my 3 year old daughter looked at me and said, "Good things happen every day." She was referring at the time to the fact that I had decided to make everyone hot fudge sundaes, but her words were very wise.
Some days you have to look a little harder for the good things, but they are there. Concentrate on those. . . . . . and it never hurts to keep some hot fudge and ice cream on hand.
Hang in there.