If you think it is all right for him to slap you and still be a part of your life, then you think it is all right for him to hit you, beat you, kick you and even kill you. That is your choice, and GOD HELP YOU! If you really believe this was an isolated incident, and the fact that you think he is a great anything is proof that you believe his BS rather than the obvious facts, then you will believe each and every incident is an isolated incident--because he has already formed your thoughts and opinions of who and what he really is, who you are, and why you deserve the incidents--because each and every incident will be isolated and very different, according to what he will have you believe! It is very sad, and I hurt for you since I lived like you are living for several years until I woke up and got the hell out of there--BEFORE HE KILLED ME, and thank God BEFORE HE EVER LAID A HAND ON MY CHILDREN! But, I did not get away before HE HURT MY CHILDREN! Children hurt whenever they are confused and especially when they are confused over a situation that displays pain and suffering and fear for their mother!!! Again, it your choice if you choose to allow your innocent child to be hurt because of his mother's inability to stand up for herself and her child!
But, if you believe he will not hurt you child, anymore than he is already by abusing you, then YOU ARE DEAD WRONG! HE WILL!!! It is a 100% sure guarantee! Now, it is sad that you are in the position to choose certain injury or even death for your child! Your child depends on you for everything, and his safety and happiness is your responsibility! He only gets to be a child once, and whatever you decide for him during his childhood years lays the foundation for the kind of adult he will become.
You must ask yourself what is important, and you must ask yourself if you really love your son. No matter what you say or what it is you tell yourself and your son is not the truth...THE TRUTH LIES ONLY IN WHAT YOU DO!
I have to believe you love your son, and I pray that you will put your faith in that love. There is NO REASON THAT YOU CANNOT LEAVE NOW! Never go back, or you will be showing your son that you love him less than a mother should love her son and you are sentencing you child to a life of abuse and violence! Your son deserves better...he deserves to have all of you and all of your love! Please, as a mother, I am begging you to avoid making a decision that you cannot take back some day!
There are lots of people and agencies out there that WANT to help YOU! Let them! Spend your life loving and enjoying the greatest of all God's blessings--your little miracle!