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In other posts/responses to posts, I mentioned my feeling that going into court is a crap shoot. I have had this man brought up on 37 violations of standing Orders of Protection and had them dismissed on a technicality. Actually, his then lawyer (now disbarred) lied in court. But because of double jeopardy, I can't get him retried. Yes, I proved to the Department of Professional Regulations that the lawyer willfully, intentionally, and with full knowledge lied in court. But it didn't help my situation. By the time I found out that I could have asked for a mistrial and fought the whole thing, the statue of limitations had run out. I've learned a lot in the 8 years since that little fiasco. But, my son has also grown a lot and I have had him with me all this time. Back then, my only prayer was "please God, just let me keep him until he is old enough to not forget his Mommy". That prayer has been answered, so I'm not really complaining. Our lives in the interim have been relatively normal. I am now remarried, have a nice house, and a very close relationship with my son.
At this point, his next scheduled visitis in a week and a half and I have the option of legally changing/cancelling any visit, any time. Sole custody with no set visitation schedule does have it's advantages. Besides, in every past instance, I was working full time and had a much harder time seeing to my son's security. Now, I am home full time, my son's school is basically aware of the situation and will not release him to anyone but my husband, my mother or myself. Yes, I drive him back and forth everyday. When not at school, he is not out of my sight. Literally. I also have the good fortune of living in a VERY tight knit little neighborhood, on a dead end street, backed up to a corn field that is patrolled by 2 Rottweillers (organic farmer had problems with coyotes and rabbits)surrounded by a 6 foot barbed wire topped fence. And if things do get a little too hairy, my son and I take a quick little impromptu vacation. Yet, I am fully aware that if he really wants to take him, there will be nothing I can do. He will have to pry him out of my cold, dead hands, but even that won't be a deterrant.
All of the above is the real reason I have been so hesitant to bring my ex back into court for child support. (my son just informed me of this Icelandic wrinkle this past weekend, though he now says he saw the papers more than a month ago. obviously, he is being torn, and is worried about 'loyalty'. I could hang this man for the mind games he is playing on our child) At this point, I am VERY glad I have not filed on him in the past couple of weeks that I have been mulling this over. I could have been majorly blind-sided. An increase in child support wouldn't be worth the risk if he decided to fight. He could ask for, and get, regularly scheduled visits which would greatly hinder my ability to protect my son if and when I need to. But a legal victory for me might just be the incentive for him to finally, completely, turn his back and walk away. T
My hope is that I will be able to verify and prove this scenario. That it will be a felony and that he will go to prison. Then I'll be asking about how one goes about getting child support out of the estate of a man currently serving time. Or how to go about terminating the parental rights of a convicted abductor.
Sadly, as much as a relief as it would be for me, it would be a true tragedy for my son. I still maintain that no matter what, we can never bad mouth the other parent. We MUST do all we can to maintain our child's relative innocence and their relationship to the other parent. Soon enough, they will grow up and understand the situation all too well. But they have to be allowed to find those understandings on their own, when they are old enough to accept them in all their bald faced ugliness.
I have told my son since he was in diapers that his Dad loves him very much, but he is just not very good at sharing. I've told him that his Dad just wants to keep what he loves most in the world all to himself, and that it was perfectly understandable since he is such a wonderful, special, unique, gloriously loveable kid. And just like I tell my son that he has to be fair and share, I will, when I have to, make his Dad share too.
None of that is a lie, just 'spin'. My son is already old enough to understand that Mom is just trying to protect him. Just 2 short weeks ago, while shopping for a card for a friend, he picked up one with the saying '..if you love something, set it free. If it comes back to you, it's yours. If it doesn't, it never was...'. He suggested, in all seriousness, that we buy it and give it to his Dad, since his Dad doesn't really understand what love is all about. Nothing, and I mean nothing, could have prepared me for the heart break of that moment. On top of that, this wise little soul caught me trying to fight off tears and tried to comfort me with "Mom, it's all right. I know how he is. It isn't your fault." I couldn't even choke out that what was breaking my heart was that my little boy understood this, this thing that no child should be able to recognize or understand. I share this very personal scene only so that other parents know that the kids do figure it out, and all too soon.
And so I maintain that we must, MUST, always do what is in the best interest of the child. No matter how it turns our lives inside out, no matter what the other parent is doing. You see, I am speaking from experience, not just a lofty, moralistic, untested viewpoint. And I really do apologize for sounding preachy to even my own ears.
[This message has been edited by Illinois Parent (edited September 27, 2000).]
[This message has been edited by Illinois Parent (edited September 27, 2000).]
At this point, his next scheduled visitis in a week and a half and I have the option of legally changing/cancelling any visit, any time. Sole custody with no set visitation schedule does have it's advantages. Besides, in every past instance, I was working full time and had a much harder time seeing to my son's security. Now, I am home full time, my son's school is basically aware of the situation and will not release him to anyone but my husband, my mother or myself. Yes, I drive him back and forth everyday. When not at school, he is not out of my sight. Literally. I also have the good fortune of living in a VERY tight knit little neighborhood, on a dead end street, backed up to a corn field that is patrolled by 2 Rottweillers (organic farmer had problems with coyotes and rabbits)surrounded by a 6 foot barbed wire topped fence. And if things do get a little too hairy, my son and I take a quick little impromptu vacation. Yet, I am fully aware that if he really wants to take him, there will be nothing I can do. He will have to pry him out of my cold, dead hands, but even that won't be a deterrant.
All of the above is the real reason I have been so hesitant to bring my ex back into court for child support. (my son just informed me of this Icelandic wrinkle this past weekend, though he now says he saw the papers more than a month ago. obviously, he is being torn, and is worried about 'loyalty'. I could hang this man for the mind games he is playing on our child) At this point, I am VERY glad I have not filed on him in the past couple of weeks that I have been mulling this over. I could have been majorly blind-sided. An increase in child support wouldn't be worth the risk if he decided to fight. He could ask for, and get, regularly scheduled visits which would greatly hinder my ability to protect my son if and when I need to. But a legal victory for me might just be the incentive for him to finally, completely, turn his back and walk away. T
My hope is that I will be able to verify and prove this scenario. That it will be a felony and that he will go to prison. Then I'll be asking about how one goes about getting child support out of the estate of a man currently serving time. Or how to go about terminating the parental rights of a convicted abductor.
Sadly, as much as a relief as it would be for me, it would be a true tragedy for my son. I still maintain that no matter what, we can never bad mouth the other parent. We MUST do all we can to maintain our child's relative innocence and their relationship to the other parent. Soon enough, they will grow up and understand the situation all too well. But they have to be allowed to find those understandings on their own, when they are old enough to accept them in all their bald faced ugliness.
I have told my son since he was in diapers that his Dad loves him very much, but he is just not very good at sharing. I've told him that his Dad just wants to keep what he loves most in the world all to himself, and that it was perfectly understandable since he is such a wonderful, special, unique, gloriously loveable kid. And just like I tell my son that he has to be fair and share, I will, when I have to, make his Dad share too.
None of that is a lie, just 'spin'. My son is already old enough to understand that Mom is just trying to protect him. Just 2 short weeks ago, while shopping for a card for a friend, he picked up one with the saying '..if you love something, set it free. If it comes back to you, it's yours. If it doesn't, it never was...'. He suggested, in all seriousness, that we buy it and give it to his Dad, since his Dad doesn't really understand what love is all about. Nothing, and I mean nothing, could have prepared me for the heart break of that moment. On top of that, this wise little soul caught me trying to fight off tears and tried to comfort me with "Mom, it's all right. I know how he is. It isn't your fault." I couldn't even choke out that what was breaking my heart was that my little boy understood this, this thing that no child should be able to recognize or understand. I share this very personal scene only so that other parents know that the kids do figure it out, and all too soon.
And so I maintain that we must, MUST, always do what is in the best interest of the child. No matter how it turns our lives inside out, no matter what the other parent is doing. You see, I am speaking from experience, not just a lofty, moralistic, untested viewpoint. And I really do apologize for sounding preachy to even my own ears.
[This message has been edited by Illinois Parent (edited September 27, 2000).]
[This message has been edited by Illinois Parent (edited September 27, 2000).]