NOMOREPROSE
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What is the name of your state (only U.S. law)? NJ/PA
Worked in NJ but reside in PA. I have experienced mental disorders since I was 19. I have been on numerous medications and been through numerous jobs. I do well for a while and then something happens, I crash even with the medicines. I am full of anger and rage and I just sent my former employer a crazy letter asking him to get the Governor to appoint me to a job. They are friends, so I figured why not try one last time to work. My family insists I belong in treatment and that i am not stable to hold a job. I feel that I could work but perhaps not full time. at My last job I complained about mistreatment but My boss said I was just paranoid and delusional in his defense. Maybe he is right, idk. 0 two days later I was laid off and I was told to tell unemployment office that I was laid off because of no work. I went along with the story but my health declined and I started getting more erractic. I stayed in bed for days, other days I stayed up for 3-4 days at a time. I cut off all of my hair and did go on two interviews during the past two years but I wore a wig and I think it was obvious I had been up for days. The problem I have is, I feel like I am smart enough to do something but I have been diagnosed as an ultradian rapid bipolar cycler. I can be fine one second and change the next with no provocation. I've been through countless jobs, praised for my dedication and work and support only to in a flash be fired because of irrational behaivor. A part of me feels like I am giving up if I try to apply for Disability. the other part of me feels like I should be strong enough to handle anything. Another part of me feels that nothing is wrong with me and I am just surrounded by *******s but everyone around me tells me I am delusional and crazy and that I should apply. Also I feel like that I was forced to go along with the unemployment but I really wasn't up for looking for a job. At this point, I'd rather just go to jail and confess and pay back the money since I did everything wrong apparently. I don't feel crazy all the time, Sometimes I am so super capable, the other times I am completly worthless.
Worked in NJ but reside in PA. I have experienced mental disorders since I was 19. I have been on numerous medications and been through numerous jobs. I do well for a while and then something happens, I crash even with the medicines. I am full of anger and rage and I just sent my former employer a crazy letter asking him to get the Governor to appoint me to a job. They are friends, so I figured why not try one last time to work. My family insists I belong in treatment and that i am not stable to hold a job. I feel that I could work but perhaps not full time. at My last job I complained about mistreatment but My boss said I was just paranoid and delusional in his defense. Maybe he is right, idk. 0 two days later I was laid off and I was told to tell unemployment office that I was laid off because of no work. I went along with the story but my health declined and I started getting more erractic. I stayed in bed for days, other days I stayed up for 3-4 days at a time. I cut off all of my hair and did go on two interviews during the past two years but I wore a wig and I think it was obvious I had been up for days. The problem I have is, I feel like I am smart enough to do something but I have been diagnosed as an ultradian rapid bipolar cycler. I can be fine one second and change the next with no provocation. I've been through countless jobs, praised for my dedication and work and support only to in a flash be fired because of irrational behaivor. A part of me feels like I am giving up if I try to apply for Disability. the other part of me feels like I should be strong enough to handle anything. Another part of me feels that nothing is wrong with me and I am just surrounded by *******s but everyone around me tells me I am delusional and crazy and that I should apply. Also I feel like that I was forced to go along with the unemployment but I really wasn't up for looking for a job. At this point, I'd rather just go to jail and confess and pay back the money since I did everything wrong apparently. I don't feel crazy all the time, Sometimes I am so super capable, the other times I am completly worthless.
