I'm not sure if this would help but I'm 17 years old and my mother and father are messed up . My dads a drunk and my mom likes to hit me everytime she feels I've done something wrong or I give her attitude she likes to tell me I wanna beat your a** over nothing one min its a joke the next its something eles one time she gave me a blood clot eye couldnt really see through it. I've been trying to just wait out but I can't I'm not in school we don't even have a place to stay I live with my brother and his friend and I don't know how long that will go the only thing my mom thinks about is guys she does every thing for my younger sister but me she wouldn't care if I died right now . I don't want to be here anymore the more I'm here I cut myself she makes it like everything I do is wrong . I want to leave but I won't have anything to leave with no home no family I wanna be on my own I know deep in my heart its gonna be so hard . I wanna finish school everything go to collage but if I be here any longer i will kill myself . my mom has done good once but now I can't take it I love her so much but I dont love her ways . if my dad were to take me it would be the same my dad doesn't even have his own place and he would go back to my mom they put me through a lot and I keep teling myself your strong you'll get through it but I'm still a kid I can't do it . my mom don't even pay attention to me cause if she did she would see that I cut myself . cutting myself is because I'm always doing something wrong with my mom or dad like I'm not perfect to I punish myself . I just need to know what can you do for me thats gonna better me I don't need to hear something I already heard before over and over again I dont need to be told you're gonna be okay or its gonna be hard bc I know it is .