stupidmoron
Junior Member
What is the name of your state? New York
You may think this sounds funny but honestly living with my father has made me insane. I know it started a long time ago but I am in counseling right now. Well, not now as I type this, actually my appointment is every Monday. He makes alot of threats and "promises", he calls them promises, claiming that he is going to burn down the house, kill my dog, kill my mom or hire the mafia to kill my mom. I am on Disability for depression/anxiety and because of him and his threats/promises whatever you want to call them, I live in constant fear, constant terror. I'm not proud to admit this but I am very dependant on my mom. I don't leave the house unless I am with my dog or my mom. Not to mention that it's my mom. My MOM! How am I supposed to react? I know I shouldn't do this but I have said that if anything happens to my mom I will kill my father. I have also become hysterical and I start crying and screaming that I wish he was dead and I'm gonna kill him and I wish I did. Yeah, well, one time my parents were having an arguement and I was afraid my father would become violent and so I picked up a knife. Self-defence. Somehow I became part of the arguement and he - let's just say acted hostile towards me. He attacked me and tried to pull the knife to my own throat. I fought him off and my mom convinced me to give her the knife before the police got here. And anyway here I am, crazy as a loon. I'm sorry, I know this isn't the place to vent and rant and rave. I'll shut up now.
You may think this sounds funny but honestly living with my father has made me insane. I know it started a long time ago but I am in counseling right now. Well, not now as I type this, actually my appointment is every Monday. He makes alot of threats and "promises", he calls them promises, claiming that he is going to burn down the house, kill my dog, kill my mom or hire the mafia to kill my mom. I am on Disability for depression/anxiety and because of him and his threats/promises whatever you want to call them, I live in constant fear, constant terror. I'm not proud to admit this but I am very dependant on my mom. I don't leave the house unless I am with my dog or my mom. Not to mention that it's my mom. My MOM! How am I supposed to react? I know I shouldn't do this but I have said that if anything happens to my mom I will kill my father. I have also become hysterical and I start crying and screaming that I wish he was dead and I'm gonna kill him and I wish I did. Yeah, well, one time my parents were having an arguement and I was afraid my father would become violent and so I picked up a knife. Self-defence. Somehow I became part of the arguement and he - let's just say acted hostile towards me. He attacked me and tried to pull the knife to my own throat. I fought him off and my mom convinced me to give her the knife before the police got here. And anyway here I am, crazy as a loon. I'm sorry, I know this isn't the place to vent and rant and rave. I'll shut up now.