Ihaverights1
Junior Member
I don't know who to talk to. This has been going on for years. It would take hours or even weeks of me telling someone the way I have been treated and everything thats happened to me, for them to have a good understanding. Its very confusing, and its taken away all of my rights as a citizen of the United States. I don't know what to say on here to give you or anyone else a better idea so I can be helped. I don't want to come off as "crazy" or come off as someone "looking for entitlement".
I've been removed from the lives of my loved ones. I can never get that back. I'm in a large amount of debt because of the hospital visits and crisis situations I've been in by the amounts of threats that have been sent in my direction and strong arm shoves to keep me here. I was a young adult when this started. I didn't step on anyones toes, someone chose to pick on me. They are the US government. They have the technology, (tools, man power, money, and discipline) to not need to do what they have been doing to me. I don't understand whats going on. I don't even know if I'm alive or dead after everything thats happened? What am I to do? I want help, I want an explanation. I want this to stop. I want to move on with my life and its not going to happen unless the US GOVERNMENT comes and knocks on my door and says "HEY BRO WE DID THIS BECAUSE, THIS AND THIS AND THIS, YOUR ALIVE, YOUR WELL, WE AREN'T COMING TO KILL YOU YOU CAN MOVE ON. I would then say THANK YOU and move on with my life because I would have to. I add in the "HEY BRO" jokingly because of how personal this has gotten. This has gotten as personal they know what I do 24/7. The kind of surveillance they have put me under and exploited is ridiculous and makes me think its some kind of "MARSHAL?? LAW??"?
They've ruined my life. I'd have a college degree by now. I would be moving on with my life. But now I'm in debt, and when I should of had a college degree, credit built so I can get a loan for a house and car. And then learning to invest. I am trying to find a way that I get an explanation for what just happened because I am in that much fear I couldn't even tell you I was on earth? And am that scared to write that.
Now I have to go back to working a labor job, that I just got beat down for years at and worked hard at. That I lost because of this situation. That is if I can find a job. I'm too sick to work as it is.Plus with around 100k in debt. No credit, no credit cards. and NO FAMILY. My family doesn't care about me at all. Its like something happened to them? They do not care at all what happened. Whats going on? I'm sick of this. I've stuck this out for a long time now because I was under the impression the US government was going to make this right and they've yet to do it. On top of that I have no money for a lawyer. Nobody cares about me, and everyone wants to be able to have their strings pulled so they can make quick cash by doing favors if they are told to shut up. I'm screwed what do I do?
I'm contemplating going to a state where the "Right To Die" is legal and maybe I can be assisted properly. Over the last 5 years I have tried to commit suicide by overdosing and electrical shock more than once but it wasn't over debt. It was because I was being sent threats that I was going to be cut up from surgical tools and tortured. I won't get into that. That was when I thought I was in an immediate threat. Dying by overdose is painless compared to dying by someone deciding to torture you with surgical tools. So I tried to overdose more than once because the threats didn't stop its a lot to explain and a lot to understand. They played a cat and mouse game with me. Now I don't see I am in an immediate threat but still feel threatened. I am too scared to even commit suicide now because after everything they have done. I'm the type of guy with an open mind, I don't even know where I am. I am that depressed, burnt out, and tired after all this. Plus I have no support and I need it. Its the government and I'm 1 guy. I don't know what to do.
I do not want to be contacted by phone. I don't want anyone coming to my door. I will only accept contacts through posts on here if I even get any. Or by email. I am that embarrassed about my life and myself, and my family and financial situation. I am in no condition to have someone come to my door and me feel like I'm running for political office. I really don't know what to do or how things like this are taken care of. Thank you.
I've been removed from the lives of my loved ones. I can never get that back. I'm in a large amount of debt because of the hospital visits and crisis situations I've been in by the amounts of threats that have been sent in my direction and strong arm shoves to keep me here. I was a young adult when this started. I didn't step on anyones toes, someone chose to pick on me. They are the US government. They have the technology, (tools, man power, money, and discipline) to not need to do what they have been doing to me. I don't understand whats going on. I don't even know if I'm alive or dead after everything thats happened? What am I to do? I want help, I want an explanation. I want this to stop. I want to move on with my life and its not going to happen unless the US GOVERNMENT comes and knocks on my door and says "HEY BRO WE DID THIS BECAUSE, THIS AND THIS AND THIS, YOUR ALIVE, YOUR WELL, WE AREN'T COMING TO KILL YOU YOU CAN MOVE ON. I would then say THANK YOU and move on with my life because I would have to. I add in the "HEY BRO" jokingly because of how personal this has gotten. This has gotten as personal they know what I do 24/7. The kind of surveillance they have put me under and exploited is ridiculous and makes me think its some kind of "MARSHAL?? LAW??"?
They've ruined my life. I'd have a college degree by now. I would be moving on with my life. But now I'm in debt, and when I should of had a college degree, credit built so I can get a loan for a house and car. And then learning to invest. I am trying to find a way that I get an explanation for what just happened because I am in that much fear I couldn't even tell you I was on earth? And am that scared to write that.
Now I have to go back to working a labor job, that I just got beat down for years at and worked hard at. That I lost because of this situation. That is if I can find a job. I'm too sick to work as it is.Plus with around 100k in debt. No credit, no credit cards. and NO FAMILY. My family doesn't care about me at all. Its like something happened to them? They do not care at all what happened. Whats going on? I'm sick of this. I've stuck this out for a long time now because I was under the impression the US government was going to make this right and they've yet to do it. On top of that I have no money for a lawyer. Nobody cares about me, and everyone wants to be able to have their strings pulled so they can make quick cash by doing favors if they are told to shut up. I'm screwed what do I do?
I'm contemplating going to a state where the "Right To Die" is legal and maybe I can be assisted properly. Over the last 5 years I have tried to commit suicide by overdosing and electrical shock more than once but it wasn't over debt. It was because I was being sent threats that I was going to be cut up from surgical tools and tortured. I won't get into that. That was when I thought I was in an immediate threat. Dying by overdose is painless compared to dying by someone deciding to torture you with surgical tools. So I tried to overdose more than once because the threats didn't stop its a lot to explain and a lot to understand. They played a cat and mouse game with me. Now I don't see I am in an immediate threat but still feel threatened. I am too scared to even commit suicide now because after everything they have done. I'm the type of guy with an open mind, I don't even know where I am. I am that depressed, burnt out, and tired after all this. Plus I have no support and I need it. Its the government and I'm 1 guy. I don't know what to do.
I do not want to be contacted by phone. I don't want anyone coming to my door. I will only accept contacts through posts on here if I even get any. Or by email. I am that embarrassed about my life and myself, and my family and financial situation. I am in no condition to have someone come to my door and me feel like I'm running for political office. I really don't know what to do or how things like this are taken care of. Thank you.