RaynaAvery
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Hi everyone,
My name is Madeline and Im 21 years old. I live in michgan and ive been officially diagnosed with high functioning autism, clinical depression, severe anxiety and bipolar disorder. I have a twin brother who is on the spectrum but he has Aspergers and is very low functioning. My mother and father have been abusive our entire lives and CPS was called multiple times but nothing was ever done. My father has a history of beating us. he would pick me up and throw me onto the bed so hard that my head would hit the headboard and start bleeding. although the physical abuse has stopped the emotional abuse has continued. He will often times comment about my weight, how i look, attempt to keep me from going outside and purposely pit me and my brother against each other. My mother hasnt done anything to stop the abuse. Because of said abuse i have developed extreme anxiety about meeting new people, going outside, and talking with members of our family for fear that anything i might say will get passed onto my father and i will get disciplined for it. My parents have purposely barred me from learning how to drive, getting a job, and going out and buying my own things. I am completeley dependant on them but i dont want to be or need to be. My father will purposely incite conflict and then call the police on me. The police have come probably over 60 different times in the last year or so. back when i was considered a minor my father and mother would tell the police i was homicidal and suicidal when i wasnt and i would be taken to the hospital and more often than not sent back home after a long and tedious ordeal. I used to have video evidence of my father abusing me but he destroyed it. He now records me whenever im having a panic attack or a outburst after instigating a fight so i feel like if i went to court i wouldnt be able to provide evidence. I feel so trapped and scared all the time and i dont know what to do. Please someone anyone help me
My name is Madeline and Im 21 years old. I live in michgan and ive been officially diagnosed with high functioning autism, clinical depression, severe anxiety and bipolar disorder. I have a twin brother who is on the spectrum but he has Aspergers and is very low functioning. My mother and father have been abusive our entire lives and CPS was called multiple times but nothing was ever done. My father has a history of beating us. he would pick me up and throw me onto the bed so hard that my head would hit the headboard and start bleeding. although the physical abuse has stopped the emotional abuse has continued. He will often times comment about my weight, how i look, attempt to keep me from going outside and purposely pit me and my brother against each other. My mother hasnt done anything to stop the abuse. Because of said abuse i have developed extreme anxiety about meeting new people, going outside, and talking with members of our family for fear that anything i might say will get passed onto my father and i will get disciplined for it. My parents have purposely barred me from learning how to drive, getting a job, and going out and buying my own things. I am completeley dependant on them but i dont want to be or need to be. My father will purposely incite conflict and then call the police on me. The police have come probably over 60 different times in the last year or so. back when i was considered a minor my father and mother would tell the police i was homicidal and suicidal when i wasnt and i would be taken to the hospital and more often than not sent back home after a long and tedious ordeal. I used to have video evidence of my father abusing me but he destroyed it. He now records me whenever im having a panic attack or a outburst after instigating a fight so i feel like if i went to court i wouldnt be able to provide evidence. I feel so trapped and scared all the time and i dont know what to do. Please someone anyone help me
