Well you have a start.....
You recognize something as being beyond your understanding, and choose to recognize this something as a "Higher Power" that you chose to call God.
If you refer to the god Jehovah I would suggest that you take a KJV (King James Version) of the work that is recognized by "Christians" as the Inspired word of Jehovah and begin at Genesis (not the band) and continue through to Revelations (Not the ones experienced by LDS) as you do this highlight or underline passages that you truly understand without taking them out of context or subjecting to whacked out interpretations from drug induced visions.
Go back to the beginning and start over. Read no less than one chapter a day, and repeat this until you have highlighted or underlined the whole text contained within your bible. Give that bible away and get a new bible. Begin at Genesis (not the band...
While you are studying the bible keep your eyes peeled for references to, "Why is it that they stay overlong over wine, and in the morning say: They beat me and I knew it not, they robbed me and I knew it not; Yet they rush to do it again?
Look also for "Go and sin no more", I'm sorry the quotation doesn't say go keep sinning until you get caught, then rely upon the kindess of strangers in the hopes that they be good samaritans, and will molly-coddle you and sympathize with your plight that you are the cause of.
I see you lying there sniviling and whining in your own filth, I say to you rise, cleanse yourself, and be made whole. Seek ye after knowledge, for with knowledge comes understanding, and with understanding comes wisdom.
With wisdom comes the understanding that the only one who was without sin was nailed to a tree, and the only innocent ones are children. As an adult, or a wilful wayward disobediant child, you made your choices, now lie in the bed you have made and enjoy it.
I am not defending IAAL, he is a big boy and can look after himself, and I who believes that a Junkie is a Junkie 'til the day the Junkie dies, and in the best interest of all why prolong the ineveitable and have such as that breathing air, and taking up space, and using valuable resources, give about as much weight to your opinion as I do curse-lover's. save the drama for ya mama, ain't nobody gettin' no oscars or tonys around here.
It is written that a harsh word to a wise man is like a hundred lashes to the back of a fool. Pray tell which are you?