Tajuana, seriously - you need to stop.
Many of us have tried sincerely to help you - if you read your own threads, many seniors have actually tried to offer you assistance and advice even though you ignored EVERYTHING that was once said to you, and were in complete and utter denial about your own situation.
Everyone knew what was going to happen - yet when it did, you were STILL offered help.
Yet here you are, projecting your own pain and hatred on someone else because you're so miserable yourself.
Please - for your own sanity, get some help. You need therapy. And you need to stop posting like this.