Your son is an adult. It is legal for him to make bad choices. Hell, it's EXPECTED for a 19 year old to make some bad choices. Lots of posters here have adult children who have made bad choices. But once they are adults, you have done all you can.
It is much more important for you to seek help for your issues. You are not actually being hit with a bat.
It is much more important for you to seek help for your issues. You are not actually being hit with a bat.