Just hush. Child support is mandatory. A "relationship" with the child you didn't want and appear to hate is not. You could ask for visitation, but frankly, I'd not want you anywhere in this child's life. Just your posts here on site would scare the heck out of me about the idea of you having any sort of contact with this child. Women who are raped (how do you know that wasn't what happened, old Superdrunk don't remember guy?) sometimes have babies, not just torn orifices and bad memories. Men are, as a general thing, stronger than women and can do things like this to them much more easily than a woman can force a man to have sex with her, just for the devious reason of conceiving an on going expense for you. How can you whine around and claim that she took advantage of you, simply because you agreed to do cocaine with her? Pay up and leave that poor child alone.