I have read this thread and since I have a similar situation,I thought I might hopefully offer some insight for Nita's sake; not that it would matter to those who have been judgemental. For those who have offered words of encouragement, kudos to you.
I will state now that my daughter is the result of a rape (with the use of date rape drug at a military function for families of deployed soldiers) while my now ex husband and I were apart due to his assignment HE suprised me and came home early and we had marital relations. I was devastated and wasn't exactly sure what had happened so I did not say anything to my then ex husband about the possible rape. The nightmares happened shortly after ex returned but we couldnt' figure out why I was having them. Does this mean I am a horrible person and deserved it. NO. and I do not know who the bio is, only that he was a soldier at the military function. It was assumed for years that my ex was the bio father because of us having had marital relations. When he had them for visitation his new wife (PITA =pain in the a$$) decided my daughter was too much to handle and put my daughter in a psych ward. Pita had a dna test ordered and unfortunately Dad consented to it under the advise of the psych doctor because Pita told the doc that dad had no history of any sort of ailments, illnesses, or "negative medical history" causing Pysch doc said "she may not be yours. This is contrary of legal father's (my ex)medical family history (grandma had polio; cousin has cerebral palsy and his father has ptsd (my daughter is special needs and it probably stems from my being born without a thyroid gland). Dna prooves my ex is not bio and he now has distanced himself from her.
I am now remarried to a wonderful man who wants to adopt her and be a dad to her. Not that I should have to explain any of that to any judgemental individuals on here either.LEGAL FATHER has consented to the adoption.
Some of you will be judgemental on me and that's ok. Judgement will be that much harsher on you. Not all situations need the nitty gritty personal clarification some of you are asking for. Some only need basic answers on the basic questions that are asked. Luckily for me I don't have to worry about the prejudgemental statements most of you will provide. Nita, feel free to pm me and maybe I can help you out. I am doing the adoption Pro Se.