I don't think you all understand. I'm not dwelling on this because I want to, or to be immature. I can't control it.
For years, I've tried to take situations such as these and use the approach of just letting it go and moving on, and I just can't do it. I get blood rushing to my head over what I can't control, I get angry, and when I can calm down, it'll usually be a short period of relief before the thoughts replay in my head over and over again that I've come close to killing myself several times over them. This isn't just me choosing to be a childish jerk.